The last time I wrote I was pretty bummed. I mean, sometimes I just get discouraged. I find myself like Peter, walking on water in impossible circumstances, and instead of being amazed at my water walking feet, I begin to pay attention to the circumstances I'm in. Thus the sinking begins. I believe that is where sinking feelings originate; we take our eyes off of Jesus, and begin to survey our surroundings. I believe what we are called to is ultimately to be able to view our surroundings through His eyes rather than our own. But until we are in that place, it's best to just keep our peeps fixed on Him!
So this is how my sweet Jesus calmed the storm inside of me: I had been worrying about our future, finances, trying to understand how all the mismatched pieces of our lives will finally fit together. That's where I was last Thursday when I sipped tea. When my oldest son arrived home, he told me that he wanted to be "The Cat in the Hat" for school the next day. His teacher had asked the students to come to school dressed as a book character. And so the hat fixing odyssey began.
At the beginning of the school year someone handed me a red WKU recyclable bag while I was on my way to teach class. I took it. Not because I really needed it, but because, like every other member of Western, I like free stuff. It had been laying in our office at home, empty since then. Until Thursday night. Did you know that you can cut up one of those bags and make a "Cat in the Hat" hat? It's true! I just used a ton of staples, an old folder, an empty butter tub, and some ribbon to fashion a costume for my son. We didn't have to buy anything. Everything we needed was hidden in what we already had.
As I was working on the project, everything fell easily into place. Whenever one step was finished, inspiration would hit again and the next part would seamlessly work itself out until the whole thing was done. It was as if invisible hands were leading me to just the right thing to make it all work together. Now I know God has all kinds of important things to attend to, you know, hurricanes and all that. But I swear I felt His Holy Spirit leading me until the project was completed. And sweetest of all was the quiet, almost shy, I-would-have-missed-it-if-I-hadn't-been-paying-attention, remark of my son, "Thanks Mom for making my costume."
Later on I whispered my own quiet, almost shy words of gratitude to my Heavenly Father. With all the big stuff going on in the world I am humbled that God would care to provide a costume for my seven year old, that He would allow it to come through my hands and heart, that it would be fashioned with love and stubborn imagination, and that it would make that precious boy grin from ear to ear. I could almost hear God's own quiet whisper, "If I can take care of the little thing that means so much, don't you think I can take care of the rest?"
Yes Lord, You can.
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