Friday, October 16, 2015
The Divine Serenade
Music is my true language. Not that I'm great at it. But it moves me. When nothing in my life makes sense, the right song can make sense out of me.
Over the last six months music has taken on a new dimension in my life. I've picked up a guitar I laid down years ago. Now words and chords have woven themselves around the vibrations of my heart, leaving songs scratched on paper that speak order into the lovely mess I live in. I love the feel of the guitar resting against my chest cavity, filling me with sound as I work the strings. When I am numb to everything, the music reaches into my deepest heart and brings forth the springs of life.
I hear the echoes of God's love in the music.
Over the last few weeks I have pondered this. The image I keep coming back to is the one Zephaniah lifts up: "The LORD, your God, is in your midst, a warrior who gives victory; He will rejoice over you with gladness, He will renew you in his love; He will exult over you with loud singing as on a day of festival" (Zephaniah 3:17-18).
We have got to get over ourselves thinking we have God all figured out. The day I first really had a heart experience with this verse I was in campus ministry, having a really difficult day. I think I read that scripture with a "yeah, right" sarcasm smeared across my heart and mind. I was discouraged and weighed down with burdens I could not shake, yet I had to put all of that aside because our evening worship service was coming fast. I couldn't show up defeated. When I walked into our small sanctuary that evening, one of our young men announced that before we started there was something he wanted to do first. He sat me down and proceeded to do a rap he had written in my honor, a humorous tribute he wrote to show his appreciation for me. When I couldn't feel the presence of God, God literally sang His song over me in a way I could never have predicted.
Feelings never tell us the whole story.
These last few weeks God has been showing me that His songs for His people never sing themselves out; they are continuous streams of music that emanate from His heart for His Beloved Bride. He always has a song for us. I believe that true transformation happens when we begin to listen for those melodies, and allow our hearts to reverberate with the music of Heaven. I believe that when the Holy One invites us to sing a new song, He is asking us to stop trying to force our song into His ears and instead sing the song He is already singing over us. When the discord is gone, our lives come into a resonance and power that is hard to describe but a force to be reckoned with.
I want that. I want my life to be a song that makes others want to sing and dance and shout and rejoice. I want my life to amplify the songs of Salvation, resonating with power and new life and love. I want the healing Love of our Savior to ripple out in waves of restoration, and this clay vessel I am to simply be a speaker of His Grace and Redemption. I want His Resurrection Story to be resplendent within me, so that those who hear will become His Resurrection Story resplendent too. I want to join with all creation in the unending hymn, "Holy, Holy, Holy Lord. God of power and might. Heaven and Earth are full of Your Glory. Hosanna in the highest, blessed is He who comes in the name of the Lord."